2013

Bye bye 2013. You bring me lots of loneliness, sadness, disappointment, betrayal. I lost many friends in 2013. Friends that I care so much disappeared without news.  I blame myself for this lost because I do not know how to treasure a friendship. So much about forgive and forget, lets move on.. shit. I will never forgive and I will never forget. Betrayal, hypocritical, empty promises are all over me in 2013.  Things I put a hope and trust so much now leaving me in the dust. I blame none other but myself.

I wish 2014 could bring me some light, a little of happiness that I am always searching for all my life. 15 years more to live in this world is not that long. I have to make full use of this time that I am have, maybe.  I almost achieve what I want, I had witnessed love been taken away from me one by one. Things that I think I have it all were gone in just a few short time. There I realized nothing is permanent in this life. Today you have it, tomorrow it may be taken away from you.  Here, I am alone again... as always.

Some peoples say I am "rich". I really puzzle how they come into that thought. FYI Peoples... I am poor since the day I was born. Doesn't mean I travel out for holiday it show I am rich. I made plan, save money, cut my spending , that is how I made my holiday.  Rich people don't have to do that.  Life is still hard for me. You people who see me at the outside but never care about the inside. I never did anything bad to people but yet people hates me to my bone. Sometime I think over and over again, what did I do?.  The best is mind my own business....but wait..thats what I have been doing all this while.

LolaAJ, my adorable feline. He is so sweet, naughty and no comment. Always there waiting for me to come home. Always respond to my call. Always ask for my attention.  Life is good again after passing of Foxxy.  Lola mommy love you.

Trip

Just came back from short trip to Semarang Indonesia visiting my extended family. The journey is worth while, I was surrounded with love with great hospitality.  It is very hard to say goodbye but I am sure to return in the future.   Love the tranquility of this village.